Julian Dean Diary
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Well, if I think about the most positive aspect of this race, it?s that I didn't crash. For everything else, it wasn?t really a great day for me at all.
My objective was just to try and get to the finish of the race. But unfortunately I wasn't even able to do that. I made it to 180km but that was the end for me. I was swinging off and on the back of the peloton a couple of times before then but the Oude Kwaremont was too much and although I came onto it in ok position I couldn't even stay in a group up there. From that point on it was a grovel up the Paterberg and then a walk up the Koppenberg. And then on to the feedzone where I finally punched my ticket outa there.
When I was younger, I think that it used to eat at me a little more than it does now and although I'm feeling bummed, I know that I will be good at some point. The hardest part at the moment is trying
not to let the suffering in the races and the poor performances get me down. Although I?ve been pro for a long time now, I still haven?t managed to find a way to get through these times not feeling mentally drained and demoralised.
Anyway, for now it?s on to Gent-Welvegem on Wednesday. Once again I?m just aiming at finishing the bloody thing. Given that this week has been the focus for most of the riders here for the past 6 months, like